"Feels like somebody's watching me"

Yes, the title of this blog entry was stolen from an old song. But, its very appropriate. Over the last couple of months a little "bug" has been hanging around. A week or so ago she called me out for reading her blog. Funny really since I had only read it a few times, but for what she called me out on, I did not do. The best part is that she really thought I cared enough to "comment" about her. The truth is that my own insecurities lead to me find her blog and read it. But, those have been more than erased and with recent events I have decided to not live another day worried about anything. In an effort to vent and share with the world my frustration I write the paragraph to follow.

So, I thought I would write this subtle or not so subtle entry to simply say move on. Texas is rather far away but with today's technology its too easy to stay in touch. And I'll throw out a hypothetical as well for those who might read this and not know about the situation. Hypothetically, if you had tried to break up with someone several times but they put themselves into the hospital or made themselves really sick each time and finally you were able to end things, would you want to be friends?? No is the answer to that. If you had to think about it you should evaluate your relationships in general. Honestly, the feeling sad for someone only lasts so long . No one cares about who you've met or who you are working for or even when you are in town. In fact, over the last 2 years you've been indulged enough. Yes, there were a few years you shared together and I'm sure you both have taken a lot away from that. I might even go as far to say that you he might have loved you. Love is a strange thing and it changes as you grow. You can love someone but not be in love with them. Hopefully you are both better for your relationship. But, Happiness is what you make of it and if you are holding on to things no matter how small you should let go, erase phone numbers and emails and really just get over it. Life is too short. Stop following my blog and enjoy your life, I am sure there is someone out there for you, I really do believe that.

Ok, done venting for the day... Sometimes girls are crazy and I know this first hand, I'm not without flaws myself. But, there comes a time when people need to grow up for real.